Week 2: in my second leg of weight loss, my weight watchers team leader wants me to focus on 5 pounds at a time. I get it, small goals equals big achievements. In my quest for the next 30 though my anxiety has increased but, not because of trying to lose the weight. It’s all situational. It seems the better I’m doing, there’s a fight in front of me that increases my feelings of being anxious.
There’s negative energy all around us and some of it we can’t just walk away from. Or sometimes it runs into you like a semi truck (BAM). It's paying attention to it when it hits, then asking yourself "what do you do"? I sometimes feel like I’ve used up my anxiety passes with friends and I don’t want to be that guy that when they see my text pop up they say, “I wonder what’s wrong with Bush now”. But, I had an anxiety attack so bad on Saturday, I almost called 911. I found the strength and just pushed through it with deep breathing exercises and kept telling myself, Bush you going to be o.k.
I’m pushing myself in the gym, trying mediation, and working out even more with my trainer Caity. (She kicks ___ & I'm sore as hell right now lol) I’m determine to change my life and be healthy and beat this anxiety problem I have.
To be continued....